Ah how I love my brain.
Today I have had another meltdown. I sit typing this after laying in bed exhausted from being at the point of tears. Tears for what? I have no idea. I woke up, ate, felt unmotivated and depressed. Not all that unusual.
But then I decided to force myself to get going. I have a few days before I am homeless. I need to find a place or something. So first things first, I was going to fix my bike (flat tire) which is my main form of transportation. I start to remove the wheel and the anxiety is huge!
I'm shaking and freaking, but dammit I'm going to work through this. Uh, no. I literally dropped everything and ran inside. I flopped on my bed in a horrible redux from my childhood. Everything squeezed. I passed out. I woke up groggy and discovered that there is a huge rain andwind storm outside. On the brightside I would have been caught in it, downside is that I'm losing another day.
Tomorrow is the last weekday to get stuff done. I'm screwed.
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